The Next Chapter ~ June 29, 2012

The Next Chapter

Am I now trying to win the approval of man, or God? Or am I still trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ." Galatians 1:10

Seeking approval, I do this as a mother, I do this as friend, I do this as partner, I do this as a daughter, I do this as a sister, I do this a member of my church.  Doing my part, trying to make everyone happy.  Saying these words out loud is admitting my co-dependency, my need to win approval, to make everyone happy.  One problem......while I am trying to please everyone, I forget about God and myself.  Returning to my mantra of Fatih, Family, & Friends, I remember to put God first, myself second, followed by everything else.  Today I am torn between looking back, and moving forward.  I will not be the poster girl for the definition of insanity....."doing the same things, and expecting different results."  God is the master, he meets me where I am, he remembers I will fail, I will sin, and I will forget to put him first.  He will forgive, and remind me to forgive others.  I'm alive.............Breathe in Breathe out....Move on 



Mercy Me - The Hurt and The Healer

Why?
The question that is never far away
The healing doesn’t come from the explained
Jesus please don’t let this go in vain
You’re all I have
All that remains

So here I am
What’s left of me
Where glory meets my suffering

I’m alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into Your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide

Breathe
Sometimes I feel it’s all that I can do
Pain so deep that I can hardly move
Just keep my eyes completely fixed on You
Lord take hold and pull me through

So here I am
What’s left of me
Where glory meets my suffering

I’m alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide

It’s the moment when humanity
Is overcome by majesty
When grace is ushered in for good
And all our scars are understood
When mercy takes its rightful place
And all these questions fade away
When out of the weakness we must bow
And hear You say “It’s over now”

I’m alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into your arms open wide
When The hurt and the healer collide

Jesus come and break my fear
Awake my heart and take my tears
Find Your glory even here
When the hurt and the healer collide [x2]

Jesus come and break my fear
Awake my heart and take my tears
Find Your glory even here