The Next Chapter - December 31, 2012-

Happy New Year ~ December 31, 2012

For whatever was written in former days was written for our instruction, that through endurance and through the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope. ~Romans 15:4

As 2012 passes I reflect on Romans 15:4,  our instructions are clearly written in the bible.  It is hard to image what God's plans are for me.  Recently I listened to a testimony of a cancer survivor, and the message I heard was God is always there, whether we think he is or not, he is there.  Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans,I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  But is the rest of this verse that should resonate with all of us. Jeremiah 29:12-13 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.  You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.  Seeking him with your whole heart!

Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.

Go Light Your World - Kathy Troccoli

There is a candle in every soul
Some brightly burning, some dark and cold
There is a Spirit who brings fire
Ignites a candle and makes His home

Carry your candle, run to the darkness
Seek out the hopeless, confused and torn
Hold out your candle for all to see it
Take your candle, and go light your world
Take your candle, and go light your world

Frustrated brother, see how he's tried to
Light his own candle some other way
See now your sister, she's been robbed and lied to
Still holds a candle without a flame

Carry your candle, run to the darkness
Seek out the lonely, the tired and worn
Hold out your candle for all to see it
Take your candle, and go light your world
Take your candle, and go light your world

We are a family whose hearts are blazing
So let's raise our candles and light up the sky
Praying to our Father, in the name of Jesus
Make us a beacon in darkest times

Carry your candle, run to the darkness
Seek out the helpless, deceived and poor
Hold out your candle for all to see it
Take your candle, and go light your world

Carry your candle, run to the darkness
Seek out the hopeless, confused and torn
Hold out your candle for all to see it
Take your candle, and go light your world
Take your candle, and go light your world

The Next Chapter - December 28,2012

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How are you preparing for 2013?  Are you making any resolutions?
I am challenging all my friends and family to listen to only Christian music for 30 days.  In the car, on your computer, on your iPod....  it is a great opportunity to get positive and encouraging input to your day. This is not a challenge for me, as I listen to www.KLove (this is link to listen) all the time.  But to not listen to any secular radio is harder to accomplish with kids, it requires forethought and making Cd's for the car and their bedrooms where the christian radio station does not come in clearly.  I will also add pray to my daily routine, knees in the morning and the evening, first to thank him for the day, and ask for guidance, and then to thank him for his grace and mercy throughout the day.......I have been doing this, but I honestly slip in and out of it everyday, I will make it a habit.  It takes 3 weeks to make a new habit, and sometimes longer to break and old one.  I take one sugar in my coffee, and I want to stop using sugar, but everyday I add one sugar, and immediately think dang I did it again.....  Today I did it again!



Psalsm 51:10-12
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your  presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

When Mercy Found Me - Rhett Walker Band

Something had to give, something had to give
'Cause living my life so wild and free, finally caught up
Oh it left me broken, left me hopeless
But that's where I met Jesus

In one moment everything changed
Who I was got washed away
When mercy found me
My Savior's arms were open wide
And I felt love for the very first time
When mercy found me
When mercy found me

All those days, all those doubts
They don't seem to matter now
His Grace is all I need
His Grace is all I need
And the chains that I was in before
They don't hold me anymore
His love has rescued me
His love has set me free

In one moment everything changed
Who I was got washed away
When mercy found me
My Savior's arms were open wide
And I felt love for the very first time
When mercy found me

My mind found peace
My soul found hope
My heart found a home

In one moment everything changed
Who I was got washed away
When mercy found me
My Savior's arms were open wide
And I felt love for the very first time
When mercy found me
When mercy found me
When mercy found me
When mercy found me
When mercy found me
When mercy found me

The Next Chapter - December 25,2012

Merry CHRISTmas!

Christmas Eve service was the best ever. I love CHRISTmas! I loved today. Spending the day with the kids, cooking and eating.... Then off to RI to eat some more with family. I am truly blessed to this wonderful family God chose for me :-)
I don't tell them near enough how much they meant to me ~~



Suddenly, an angel of the Lord appeared among them, and the radiance of the Lord’s glory surrounded them. They were terrified, but the angel reassured them. “Don’t be afraid!” he said. “I bring you good news that will bring great joy to all people. The Savior—yes, the Messiah, the Lord—has been born today in Bethlehem, the city of David!
Luke 2:9-11 NLT


When Love Was Born - Mark Schultz

Starlight shines, the night is still
Shepherds watch from a hill
I close my eyes, to see the night
When love was born

Perfect child gently waits
A mother bends to kiss God's face
I close my eyes, to see the night
when love was born

Angels fill the the midnight sky. They sing
Hallelujah, He is Christ, our King

Emmanuel, Prince of peace
Loves come down for you and me
Heaven's gift, the holy spark
To let the way inside our hearts

Bethlehem, through your small door
Came the hope we've waited for
The world was changed forevermore
When love was born

I close my eyes, to see the night
When love was born

The Next Chapter - December 11, 2012

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God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him. ~ James 1:12, NLT

Waiting patiently has never been my strong suit.  I will continue to ask for guidance and not jump the gun.  I am working daily on avoiding temptation * at so many levels * and putting positive people in my life.  Life as we know it is very short.  A fact driven home this weekend, when a young 14 year old boy was killed in Plymouth in an ATV accident.  When death comes close to home to someone so young, we must pause and realize life indeed is short.  I did not personally know this boy, but many of my church and school family knew him, and it has rippled throughout the community.

When life turns in a unplanned direction we as humans have trouble grasping why, and how could God let this happen.  I have been praying for peace, for understanding, and that they feel the presence of the holy spirit as they process this loss.  

Peace - Norah Jones


There's a place that i know where the sycamores grow
And daffodils have their fun
Where the cares of the day seems to slowly fade away
And the glow of the evening sun
Peace when the day is done

If i go there real late, let my mind meditate on everything to be done
If i search deep inside, let my conscience be my guide
Then the answers are sure to come
Don't have to worry none

When you find a piece of mind
Leave you worries behind
Don't say that it can't be done
With a new point of view
Life's true meaning comes to you
And the freedom you seek is one
Peace is for everyone
Peace is for everyone
Peace is for everyone

The Next Chapter - December 2, 2012

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Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, and whose hope is the Lord. —Jeremiah 17:7

Blind faith and trust in the Lord.  Have you ever witnessed someone's body fail them?  Watching a disease take someone's life is difficult, as a person of faith you have so many questions, starting with why?  Knowing my hope, my life and my future are in the Lord help and remind me that every day is a present, and every breathe a gift.  My friends remember always the bible tells us over and over again, this home is a temporary one, and our true home is the kingdom of heaven.  

As you can see am thinking of someone, and her journey.  I only met her briefly, and honestly don't know if she even remembers me..... but I pray for her everyday and her journey to our Father.  I write this blog for me, and processing my feelings, my day, my journey.  Trusting in the Lord and putting all my eggs in his basket. 

Jeremiah 29:11-13
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

I Believe In You ~ Sinead O'Connor

(Words and Music by Bob Dylan)

They ask me how I feel
And if my love is real
And how I know I'll make it through.
They look at me and frown,
and like to drive me from this town,
They don't want me around
'Cause I believe in you.

They show me to the door,
They say "don't come back no more"
'Cause I don't be like they'd like me to,
And I, I walk out on my own
A thousand miles from home
But I don't feel alone
'Cause I believe in you.

I believe in you even through the tears and the laughter,
I believe in you even though we be apart.
I believe in you even on the morning after.
Oh, when the dawn is nearing
Oh, when the night is disappearing
Oh, this feeling is still here in my heart.

Don't let me drift too far,
Keep me where you are
Where I will always be renewed.
And that which you've given me today
Is worth more than I could pay
And no matter what they say
I believe in you.

I believe in you when a winter turn to the summer,
I believe in you when white turns to black,
I believe in you even though I be outnumbered.
Oh, though the earth may shake me
Oh, though my friends forsake me
Oh, even that couldn't make me go back.

Don't let me change my heart,
Keep me set apart
From all the plans they do pursue.
And I, I don't mind the pain
Don't mind the driving rain
I know I will sustain
'Cause I believe in you.

The Next Chapter - November 30, 2012

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Gratitude. Thankfulness. Humbled.

Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. ~ 1 Peter 5:6-7

After a difficult day yesterday, with a renew spirit and a determined heart I put it behind me, and humbled myself before my God, and my children asking for forgiveness and understanding for my shortcomings.  I believe I am teachable and I will get better at this.  I am so looking forward to this Christmas season, not because I have grand plans or the extra money for the greatest gifts, but because this year more than any other year I truly have Jesus in my heart, and when I random Christmas song can move me to tears..... I know I am looking for to celebrating the birth of our savior. ~ I was going to try to wait until December to post Christmas lyrics but this one hit me tonight........

"I Need A Silent Night"


I've made the same mistake before
Too many malls, too many stores
December traffic, Christmas rush
It breaks me till I push and shove

Children are crying while mothers are trying
To photograph Santa and sleigh
The shopping and buying and standing forever in line
What can I say?

I need a silent night, a holy night
To hear an angel voice through the chaos and the noise
I need a midnight clear, a little peace right here
To end this crazy day with a silent night

December comes then disappears
Faster and faster every year
Did my own mother keep this pace
Or was the world a different place?

Where people stayed home wishing for snow
Watching three channels on their TV
Look at us now rushing around
Trying to buy Christmas peace

I need a silent night, a holy night
To hear an angel voice through the chaos and the noise
I need a midnight clear, a little peace right here
To end this crazy day with a silent night

What was it like back there in Bethlehem
With peace on earth, good will toward men?

Every shepherd's out in the field
Keeping watch over their clock by night
And the glory of the Lord shone around them
And they were so afraid

And the angels said fear not for behold
I bring you good news of a great joy that shall be for all people
For unto you is born this day a Savior, who is Christ the Lord
And his name shall be called Wonderful Counselor, Prince of Peace

I need a silent night, a holy night
To hear an angel voice through the chaos and the noise
I need a midnight clear, a little peace right here
To end this crazy day with a silent night
To end this crazy day with a silent night

GNGB~

The Next Chapter - November 29, 2012

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Wow it has been awhile, life has gotten way to busy.  So to catch up.....Another contract extension(4 weeks), however a different department(Supply Chain),  Happy Thanksgiving! And Merry Christmas season.....  During the next month as we get busier and busier lets pause and remember the reason for the season, and be grateful and thankful in all circumstances.
The kids and I traveled to my sister, Beth's in St Louis MO with Dad & Rita.  It truly was a blessing, my kids and her kids really enjoyed each other, and we hope to plan a summer trip! (thanks to Beth and Brian for hosting). Which seems like a lifetime ago already.

So I started writing this a few days ago, and got caught up with school stuff (mid-term exam). 
So I am back again, and here to admit I am ready to be committed to a mental ward.
This morning I am completely ashamed of my parenting skills, or lack of skills.  The day started so well, on my knees (Jack came in while I was praying and asked to join me~too cute).  But how, why, and when it took a turn for the worst I don't know, maybe it was the nit picking Merry and Jack started as soon as Merry woke, or maybe it was the fact they still had homework to do from the night before (which they told me was done!) or better still, maybe it was the actual phyiscal fighting while I was in the shower or maybe Jack spilling water all over the table getting Merry's homework wet or maple syrup getting on Merry's homework.....  could be any of all of these reasons!  Needless to say I lost it!  I completely lost my head.....  Shouting, yelling, knocking over a chair, throwing the plastic cup with the unspilled water into the sink!! They stood watching 1/2 expecting my head to spin around and vomiting pea soup!  I don't know what came over me.......my lack of composure and my behavior is frightening!  We all ended up crying....  I drove Jack to school, and apologized for my outburst, and asked his forgiveness.  I called Merry on the way back, and said sorry, and then waited with her for the bus, I got a kiss goodbye.  So all is well..... However the damage is done, and I cannot undo this.  I need to find the tools to manage this better!  I am praying for guidance, and forgiveness today.  I am trying to get over this and not hating myself for it.

Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; therefore he will rise up to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him! ~ Isaiah 30:18 

I must stop trying to control all of these situations, and continually pray and give the to God, he will show me the way, guiding with his loving hand and heart.  Sending me the holy spirit when I struggle.  Put people in my path who can help us!  I must post this song today ~~ December will be filled with Christmas music only :)

"Redeemed"- Big Daddy Weave

Seems like all I could see was the struggle
Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past
Bound up in shackles of all my failures
Wondering how long is this gonna last
Then You look at this prisoner and say to me "son
Stop fighting a fight it's already been won"

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I'm not who I used to be
I am redeemed, I'm redeemed

All my life I have been called unworthy
Named by the voice of my shame and regret
But when I hear You whisper, "Child lift up your head"
I remember, oh God, You're not done with me yet

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I'm not who I used to be

Because I don't have to be the old man inside of me
'Cause his day is long dead and gone
Because I've got a new name, a new life, I'm not the same
And a hope that will carry me home

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, 'cause I'm not who I used to be

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, yeah, I'm not who I used to be
Oh, God, I'm not who I used to be
Jesus, I'm not who I used to be
'Cause I am redeemed
Thank God, redeemed

The Next Chapter - Novermber 9, 2012

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Don’t you have a saying, ‘It’s still four months until harvest’? I tell you, open your eyes and look at the fields! They are ripe for harvest. Even now the one who reaps draws a wage and harvests a crop for eternal life, so that the sower and the reaper may be glad together -John 4:35-36

We reap what we sow, when we sow good deeds, and thoughts and prayers throughout each day we a blessed with a harvest.  I think of what does this really mean to me today?  I am waiting for an opportunity for a job.  So I sow the seeds.  I look under every rock, and follow every lead for a job.  Today I looked through my book of business cards from former contacts in my various jobs, and sent out my resume.  Looking under every rock, following every lead.  Some of these doors closed immediately but who know where it may lead me.  Only God knows, and he will reveal my harvest when it is ripe for harvest.    I will pray.  And request others to pray..... I urge you, brothers and sisters, by our Lord Jesus Christ and by the love of the Spirit, to join me in my struggle by praying to God for me. ~ Romans 15:30


Calling Glory - Don't Give Up

This time your heart said its had enough
Sick and tired of everything that's so messed up
You don't wanna move on just playing games
Praying hard somehow your life will change
When you feel like you don't know what to do
Stuck inside this maze you can't go through

(chorus)
Don't give up
and help is surely on its way
and don't give up
and the dark is breaking in today
and just keep on moving through these storms
and soon enough you'll find the door
just don't give up
oh and don't give up

These walls around you are caving in
And your life seems like it is wearing thin
Your hope is drowning in despair
It looks like you're not going anywhere
Step inside this Heart and then you'll see
Such a love that is so amazing
(Chorus)

The Next Chapter - November 8,2012

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"Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ." Galatians 1:10

How can we not try and please people? I found out today I am not getting the job I interviewed for at Partylite. Budgetary constraints..... I found myself on my knees more than once today, I am surrendering I cannot try and seek to please co-workers bosses potential bosses....Only God.. I put it in Gods hands in Gods time.



THIRD DAY - I Need A Miracle lyrics


Well, late one night, she started to cry and thought he ain’t coming home
She was tired of the lies, tired of the fight, but she didn’t want to see him go
She fell on her knees and said, “I haven’t prayed since I was young
But Lord above I need a miracle”
Well no matter who you are and no matter what you’ve done
There will come a time when you can’t make it on your own
And in your hour of desperation
Know you’re not the only one, praying
Lord above, I need a miracle
I need a miracle
He lost his job and all he had in the fall of ’09
Now he feared the worst, that he would lose his children and his wife
So he drove down deep into the woods and thought he’d end it all
And prayed, “Lord above, I need a miracle”
Well no matter who you are and no matter what you’ve done
There will come a time when you can’t make it on your own
And in your hour of desperation
Know you’re not the only one, praying
Lord above, I need a miracle
I need a miracle
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la
Whoa oh
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la
Whoa oh
He turned on the radio to hear a song for the last time
He didn’t know what he was looking for even what he’d find
The song he heard gave him hope and strength to carry on
And on that night, they found a miracle
They found a miracle
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la
Whoa oh
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la
Whoa oh
In your hour of desperation
Know you’re not the only one, praying
Lord above, I need a miracle
I need a miracle

Tired of the fight

The Next Chapter - November 7, 2012

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Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.  ~Romans 12:2

Now What? This morning I am sitting in my office(in my temporary job) I am listening to the aftermath of the election, and I realized change starts with me, in my home.  Romney said it best when he said he and Anne would earnestly pray for the leadership of this county.  I cannot think of anything worth investing my time into. Prayer is always worth your time. 
Upon waking this morning,  I slide out of bed and onto my knees.  I humbled myself before the Lord and asked for guidance in my day.  A peace I cannot describe lives in my prayers, and this peace is shattered when I try to conform to this world, and do/act as others do.  I need to continue to start and end my day with my God, and my brother Jesus. John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."
 
This song I think of my kids, and how am I guiding them, at the conference I vowed to take 15 minutes with them each day, in prayer and story time.  Sunday done, Monday done, Tuesday done, but not until I realized I was letting it slip away by focusing my time on the election and I left them to themselves, until they started fighting in the bathroom while getting ready for bed.  I yelled, and then realized this was because of my lack of attention.  I regained myself and read a devotion having each one read the verse that coincides with it and prayed the Lord's Prayer, and tucked them in.....  It takes 3 weeks to create a new habit.  What are you going to change today?

"Lead Me"- Santus Reel

I look around and see my wonderful life
Almost perfect from the outside
In picture frames I see my beautiful wife
Always smiling
But on the inside, I can hear her saying...

"Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone"

I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes
They're just children from the outside
I'm working hard, I tell myself they'll be fine
They're in independent
But on the inside, I can hear them saying...

"Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, but what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone"

So Father, give me the strength
To be everything I'm called to be
Oh, Father, show me the way
To lead them
Won't You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can't
Don't want to leave them hungry for love,
Chasing things that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this our home
Lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

Father, lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

The Next Chapter - November 5, 2012

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The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of your hands. ~ Psalm 138:8

Steadfast love......  Endures forever....  Sometimes we all feel down, and while today it is not me, I still managed to yell at my kids for just being kids.  Yesterday I felt like "I got this I can do this" I can change this part of me I do not like, and be a better Mom.  And it was going great, even better than expected.  But kids will be kids, and they need to test the "new" you and see what your breaking point is.  And when you ask for quiet to get your homework done, it definitively means start a ruckus and fight with each other.

Now I blame myself for trying to do homework before bedtime.  Which I promptly corrected with a book and prayer time with them, and without another word I have 2 sleeping kids.  And my homework is done..... Amen to that!

"Christ Is Risen" - Matt Maher

Let no one caught in sin remain*
Inside the lie of inward shame
We fix our eyes upon the cross
And run to him who showed great love
And bled for us
Freely you bled, for us

Christ is risen from the dead
Trampling over death by death
Come awake, come awake!
Come and rise up from the grave!

Christ is risen from the dead
We are one with him again
Come awake, come awake!
Come and rise up from the grave!

Beneath the weight of all our sin
You bow to none but heavens will
No scheme of hell, no scoffer's crown
No burden great can hold you down
In strength you reign
Forever let your church proclaim

Christ is risen from the dead
Trampling over death by death
Come awake, come awake!
Come and rise up from the grave

Christ is risen from the dead
We are one with him again
Come awake, come awake!
Come and rise up from the grave

Oh death! Where is your sting?
Oh hell! Where is your victory?
Oh Church! Come stand in the light!
The glory of God has defeated the night!

Oh death! Where is your sting?
Oh hell! Where is your victory?
Oh Church! Come stand in the light!
Our God is not dead, he's alive! he's alive!

Christ is risen from the dead
Trampling over death by death
Come awake, come awake!
Come and rise up from the grave
Christ is risen from the dead
We are one with him again
Come awake, come awake!
Come and rise up from the grave

Rise up from the grave...

The Next Chapter ~ November 4, 2012

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I don't usually quote anything but the bible.  I think about the living word everyday, and I see many examples of living and loving Gods people.  I was moved today to share my road to recovery.  I received my 90 day chip yesterday, and I honestly felt like I was receiving an academy award.  The group I went to one time before happened to be the group God chose for me to attend last night. I walked in and the chairperson of the first meeting I attended there, remembered my name, and the speaker was an interesting lady with 37 years in recovery. I am on a God high, considering I just returned from a Christian leadership conference with 160 woman, then on to 2 days with Beth Moore (worship lead by Travis Cottell) and it was AMAZING. 4000 women !! I rocked my soul.  10 people came to accept Jesus including 2 event workers, I watched the security guard as she was surrounded by open arms with tears in my eyes.  I was so moved to see the spirit work.   I am on a journey of hope and love.  At the conference I realized my sobriety and my mission start at home each morning on my knees, and I am one person, and today I asked for patience and guidance.  So many people don't understand being a Christian, or being in AA.  Some see it as a cult or something they cannot explain, but to witness 4000 women singing praise to God, and accepting his hand in their lives wholeheartedly..... it is life changing.  Acts 16:25 About midnight Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns to God, and the other prisoners were listening to them.  Who is listening to you? 

"Jesus In Disguise" - Brandon Heath

Ever get something in your head?
It's nothing you heard
Or something you read

Ever had a cut but you never saw a blade?
Brought to your knees
But you never prayed

Jesus in disguise
Jehovah passing by
The burden of a tear
Hanging in your eye

Jesus in disguise
A scar across the sky
You were looking for a king
You would never recognize

Jesus in disgu-ah-hah-aah-ah-haa-ise

Ever feel like you been somewhere before?
You hold the key
You know which door

Speak the word your lips have never known
Because your heart
Told you so

Jesus in disguise
Jehovah passing by
The burden of a tear
Hanging in your eye

Jesus in disguise
A scar across the sky
You were looking for a king
You would never recognize

Jesus in disgu-ah-hah-aah-ah-haa-ise

[Bridge]
So open my eyes wide as I can
Blind as I am
Blind as I am

So open my eyes wide as I can
Blind as I am
Blind as I am

Jesus in disgu-ah-hah-aah-ah-haa-ise
Jesus in disgu-ah-hah-aah-ah-haa-ise
Jesus in disgu-ah-hah-aah-ah-haa-ise
(So open my eyes wide as I can
Blind as I am
Blind as I am)
Jesus in disgu-ah-hah-aah-ah-haa-ise
(So open my eyes wide as I can
Blind as I am
Blind as I am)

The Next Chapter - October 27,2012

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If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. John 15:7

Let me wonder in his love and my relationship with him. I am amazing in how his peace is in me and always has been.... John 14:27 Jesus gives it to me. Me and you and everyone who believes in him.

Follow You - (ft. Brandon Heath)

You lived among the least of these,
The weary and the weak,
And it would be a tragedy for me to turn away.

All my needs, you have supplied.
When I was dead, you gave me life.
How could I not give it away so freely?

And I'll follow you into the homes of the broken,
Follow you into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy, God.
Follow you into the World.

Use my hands, use my feet,
To make your kingdom come,
To the corners of the earth,
Until your work is done.
Cause Faith without works is dead,
And on the cross your blood was shed.
So how could I not give it away so freely?

And I'll follow you into the homes of the broken.
Follow you into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy, God.
Follow you into the World.

I'll follow you into the homes of the broken.
Follow you into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy, God.
Follow you into the World.

I give all myself.
I give all myself
I give all myself... to you.

And I give all myself.
Yes, I give all myself.
And I give all myself... to you.

And I'll follow you into the homes of the broken.
(homes of the broken)
Follow you into the world.
(follow you)
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy, God.
(poor and the needy, God.)
Follow you into the World.
(I will follow)

I'll follow you into the homes of the broken.
Follow you into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy, God.

The Next Chapter ~ October 23, 2012

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The heartfelt counsel of a friend is as sweet as perfume and incense. ~ Proverbs 27:9

I had trouble sleeping last night, I woke this morning tired and cranky, rushing out of bed because Jack had to get to school early for morning math program. I just wanted to stay in bed. I need to bulk up on my sleep, with (2) classes starting next week, I will be staying up late doing homework.

Once I stopped rushing and started to focus on my day, I began to think about my current path, and confused with various comments and strategies, I turned to a friend(who happens to be my Mama) for advice, and listening rather than formulating my response I heard what I needed to hear to begin to work through what could be a stumbling block. It was timely, needed. I am in a good place, and I look forward to today and tomorrow.

"When the Lord closes a door, somewhere He opens a window" - I got a letter from a job I applied for, stating they went with a different candidate. I knew it was between me and 2 others, and it did not meet my fincial needs.... so it is a blessing this door closed. Many changes regarding lifestyle and schedules (working Saturdays was a requirement) were necessary to manage this position. I have a second interview on Thursday for another position in Plymouth, that would fit our needs. The Lord knows our needs, and the right door will open. I find it interesting to see where I have been from one year ago. One year ago, I was starting this contract position. This journey has been interesting, and far from boring. I am grateful tor this company for the job, and I look forward to what lies ahead!
I am not afraid of my giants.


"Voice Of Truth" - Casting Crowns

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes to climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves

To step out of my comfort zone
To the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out his hand

But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. 'Boy, you'll never win!'
"You'll never win"

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
And the voice of truth says "Do not be afraid!"
And the voice of truth says "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a Sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again "boy, you'll never win!
"You'll never win"

But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them looking down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me

I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

The Next Chapter - October 22, 2012

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In everything, give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you ~ 1 Thessalonians 5:18

Gratitude is easy said than done.  We know that each day is a gift, and giving thanks for a gift is the expectation.  I found myself being thankful today for some of the strangest things, like forgetting my cell phone on the counter, so when I returned to retreive it, I realized I left on the heat... which gets expensive to heat an empty house during the day.  I am also grateful for clarity in my path.  I recently read an old blog and while writing it the pain, and sadness were really real....the difference a year makes, and the growth experienced in one year's time is amazing to me.  I am truly grateful to be where I am, even when where I am comes with its own struggles.  I am not going to settle for what is comfortable.  I am going to strive for living and loving like Jesus.  As choices come my way, I will be steadfast in my path to find his peace.   I will ask for help, and be grateful when it comes!


Love Them Like Jesus - Casting Crowns

The love of her life is drifting away
They're losing the fight for another day
The life that she's known is falling apart
A fatherless home, a child's broken heart

You're holding her hand, you're straining for words
You trying to make sense of it all
She's desperate for hope, darkness clouding her view
She's looking to you

Just love her like Jesus, carry her to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves her and stay by her side
And love her like Jesus, love her like Jesus

The gifts lie in wait, in a room painted blue
Little blessing from Heaven would be there soon
Hope fades in the night, blue skies turn to gray
As the little one slips away

You're holding their hand, you're straining for words
You're trying to make sense of it all
They're desperate for hope, darkness clouding their view
And they're looking to you

Just love them like Jesus, carry them to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
And love them like Jesus

Lord of all creation holds our lives in His hands
The God of all the nations holds our lives in His hands
The Rock of our salvation holds our lives in His hands
He cares for them just as He cares for you

So love them like Jesus, love them like Jesus
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
And love them like Jesus, love them like Jesus
Love them like Jesus, love them like Jesus

The Next Chapter - October 19, 2012

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What a difference a day makes! When you truly give it up and pray for peace....he is generous and lavishes you with peace. The Holy Spirit can feel like a warm blanket.....


You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you...
Isaiah 26:3

 I saw this verse 2 times today from 2 seperate sources. It always amazes me, when I call out in prayer for peace and patience how quickly it comes. I am waiting on a job, and I continue to give it up and "try" to patiently wait for his will to develop, and today I got a call for a 2nd interview at Partylite in Plymouth...... A job that would be truly wonderful for my family. Close to home and a salary range we can live with. :) I will continue to have faith. At times it is blind, but faith none the less is what carries us to follow his path for us. In uncertain times, focusing on his perfect love can keep us from falling into panic, and practicing peace. Even at home this morning, by praying for a peaceful morning, I found my peace inside, outside breakfast and kids were still chaos, but by not playing into their games, I was truly at peace. I was amazed, and blessed with this discovery. His peace is with me, and in me. John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." I just need to remember to call it out.


"From The Inside Out" - Hillsong

A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
Should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace
Everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise
Everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart, in my soul
I give you control
Consume me from the inside out
Let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring you praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

The Next Chapter ~ October 18, 2012

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But a poor widow came and put in two very small copper coins, worth only a few cents.
Calling his disciples to him, Jesus said, "Truly I tell you, this poor widow has put more into the treasury than all the others.  They all gave out of their wealth; but she, out of her poverty, put in everything—all she had to live on."  - Mark 12:42-44


Interesting concept giving everything even when you feel you have nothing to give.  I feel empty today, I feel like I am putting out everything I have, and I have nothing left.  I am tired, and I want to receive something.... anything.  Something as simple as a peaceful house at breakfast.  Even as the bus drove away, I got a puss face from Merry and I had to drive away to start my day at a job that does not want me, not knowing when or where my next job is coming from.  It is hard to stay positive but just as I type these words I recall my devotional this morning, and the verse from Mark 12:42-44, Jesus tells us to give everything.  I know there are miracles all around all the time, and God puts people in my life for his glory, and impowering me to serve him with everything I have.  I hear of friends and loved ones struggling with bigger fish, and I wonder why am I down about what I have, and why should I be feeling low.  Yes, I got a puss face this morning, but I have a great kid with her own mind and personality, and I don't let her attitude rule my day.  I don't depend on her for my own happiness, I can focus daily on the big picture, and do it one day at a time. 



"You Raise Me Up" - Josh Groban

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

The Next Chapter ~ October 17, 2012

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The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Psalm 34:18

Brokenhearted and crushed in spirit, these are strong words, but some days are seemingly the only words that fit the feeling. I started today just as I wanted to...on my knees. Both my kids were waking at the same time, in the same bed (mine!), and I suggested they get up and get going, and they were welcome to start their day with a prayer. Much to my surprise, Jack slided right down next to me :) ~ and of course Merry bolted. It was awesome to have my little prayer warrior start the day in prayer. So now you wonder why I am brokenhearted and crushed in spirit. It is this job, coming to a job where I know I am not permenant, and I have no other job to speak of now. It is disheartening..... I am trying to be positive and happy. I continue to give it God all day everyday, and take it one day at a time. But it is a lonely business being a single mom, and only having your kids to rely on for conversations, and entertainment. I miss being a "couple" and doing things with other adults. .....  I don't give up, and I will always go to the Lord for help.  He knows my needs and will meet them when I am ready.

Calling Glory - Don't Give Up

This time your heart said its had enough
Sick and tired of everything that's so messed up
You don't wanna move on just playing games
Praying hard somehow your life will change
When you feel like you don't know what to do
Stuck inside this maze you can't go through

(chorus)
Don't give up
and help is surely on its way
and don't give up
and the dark is breaking in today
and just keep on moving through these storms
and soon enough you'll find the door
just don't give up
oh and don't give up

These walls around you are caving in
And your life seems like it is wearing thin
Your hope is drowning in despair
It looks like you're not going anywhere
Step inside this Heart and then you'll see
Such a love that is so amazing

(Chorus)

The Next Chapter ~ October 16, 2012

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Keep reminding God’s people of these things. Warn them before God against quarreling about words; it is of no value, and only ruins those who listen. Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a worker who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth. 2 Timothy 2:14-15


The Word of truth.... I sometimes mistake or take the Word out of context. When I hear a verse I try and read the before and the after to get the complete context. I think I hear what I want to hear, and apply it to as I understand it. "Flee the evil desires of youth and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart." 2 Timothy 2:22 I think back to this morning when my ankle biters were fighting at breakfast, and I remembered the words from Sundays sermon about humbling myself before God and asking for help, after raising my voice at their behavior I practically threw myself down on my knees to ask for forgiveness and guidance for the reminder of the day, and it was only 7:45am. My mistake was not slipping out of bed and onto my knees to begin with.


"Beautiful History" - Plumb


I have made mistakes and I have been afraid
I have felt alone then You called my name
Things were crashing loudly, happening all around me
But Your still small voice was all that I could hear

I am here, I'm holding you
You'll make it through this, I am here, I am here
I am here, I'm holding you
You'll make it through this, I am here, I am here

Whenever you run away
Whenever you lose your faith
It's just another stroke of the pen on the page
A lonely ray of hope is all that you'll need to see a beautiful history

Well, I've been such a fool when I've known the truth
I've wasted so much time doing what I wanted to
I've been living solely for myself and myself only
But Your still small voice is whispering

Whenever you run away
Whenever you lose your faith
It's just another stroke of the pen on the page
A lonely ray of hope is all that you'll need to see a beautiful history

I toss and turn and scream, I try to do everything
With two feet on the ground I just keep falling down again
I feel so far from home, completely all alone
And then I hear You say I am here, I am here

Whenever you run away
Whenever you lose your faith
It's just another stroke of the pen on the page
A lonely ray of hope is all that you'll need to see a beautiful history
A beautiful history, a beautiful history

The Next Chapter - September 30,2012

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Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus. ~ 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18, NLT


Almost everything is out of your control....you can only control yourself and how you react or don't react to something! When we take it in stride we can face anything. Pray for everything and everyone. Sometimes we struggle in private and when we share our struggles with God we grow stronger in our faith in whatever outcome. We can overcome....


"Overcome"- Jeremy Camp

Seated above, enthroned in the Father's love
Seated above, enthroned in the Father's love
Destined to die, poured out for all mankind
God's only Son, perfect and spotless one
He never sinned but suffered as if He did

All authority
Every victory is Yours
All authority
Every victory is Yours

Savior, worthy of honor and glory
Worthy of all our praise, You overcame
Jesus, awesome in power forever
Awesome and great is Your name, You overcame

Power in hand speaking the Father's plan
You're sending us out, light in this broken land

We will overcome by the blood of the Lamb
And the word of our testimony, everyone overcome

The Next Chapter ~ September 18, 2012

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Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, love for the Father is not in them. For everything in the world—the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life—comes not from the Father but from the world. The world and its desires pass away, but whoever does the will of God lives forever. ~
1 John 2:15

The world we live in is toxic to our faith and spirituality..... "May we listen, Lord, to You as You speak to us today
Through Your Spirit and Your Word—
Help us follow and obey." —Sper
I struggle to hear you today, I pray for clarity in your path. I mustn't let the noise of the world keep you from hearing the voice of the Lord.

Building 429 ~ You Save Me

Hold your breath, take a step it's gonna be your day
They're asking you to speak the truth but you don't know what to say
Feel the fear creeping up like you were on a stage
You've had enough you're stepping up to say what you came to say
Say it just say it just say it
Say it just say it just say it

It's in my heart, it's in my soul, it's something that I can't let go
I come alive every time, I can feel You
All I am and all I'll be is different since You set me free
I come alive every time
Cause You save me, Lord You save me

You're feeling good just like you should but now you can feel the weight
Of people's eyes they pass you by hoping that you will fade
So live it just live it just live it
So live it just live it just say

It's in my heart, it's in my soul, it's something that I can't let go
I come alive every time, I can feel You
All I am and all I'll be is different since You set me free
I come alive every time
Cause You save me, Lord You save me

Cause this is not what we thought it would be
And this is why we gotta speak
Cause there is love oh there is hope
We gotta live it out, live it out so they will know

Just say it's in my heart, it's in my soul, it's something that I can't let go
I come alive every time I can feel You
All I am and all I'll be is different since You set me free
I come alive every time
Just say, just say
It's in my heart, it's in my soul, it's something that I can't let go
I come alive every time, I can feel You
All I am and all I'll be is different since You set me free
I come alive every time
Cause You save me, Lord You save me
You save me, You save me yeah

Hold your breath, take a step, it's gonna be your day

The Next Chapter - September 17, 2012

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So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. ~ Isaiah 41:10

I went to a wedding this weekend in VT, I loved my time, meeting great people. I am truly blessed to be surrounded by Christians who truly love the Lord.
Remembering to trust his path even when it feels shaky, I can only control myself, I continue to make good choices.

Weekend in New England - Barry Manilow

Last night I wave goodbye, now it seems years
I'm back in the city where nothing is clear
But thoughts of me, holding you
Bringing us near

And tell me when will our eyes meet
When can I touch you
When will this strong yearning end
And when will I hold you again

Time in New England took me away
To long rocky beaches and you, by the bay
We started a story
Whose end must now wait

And tell me when will our eyes meet
When can I touch you
When will this strong yearning end
And when will I hold you again

I feel the change comin'
I feel the wind blow
I feel brave and daring
I feel my blood flow

With you I could bring out
All the love, that I have
With you there's a Heaven
So earth ain't so bad

And tell me when will our eyes meet
When can I touch you
When will this strong yearning end
And when will I hold you again, again

The Next Chapter - September 6, 2012

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Then when you call, the Lord will answer. 'Yes, I am here,' he will quickly reply. ~ Isaiah 58:9, NLT

Who am I Lord, I am yours. I will serve. Continue to mold me as you wish and use me for your glory. As I ponder my future and wonder (not worry)where you will use me I wait for your guidance. I call out in prayer and continue to make changes in my life for your glory.

"Learning To Be The Light" - Neweorldson

When the stars came crashing down
In tiny pieces to the ground
I was all alone down here
Trapped beneath the atmosphere
Then I, thought somebody called my name
I spun around and caught a flame
I gave into a God I didn't know
And now everything is falling into place
A brand new life is calling and I owe it all to grace

It's so much brighter living in Your world
Savior, what You did for me
You gave me something I want everyone to see
When we struggle and it all goes wrong
Only You can make it right
So I say
Oh oh oh oh oh
I'm learning to be the light
Whoa, whoa
I'm learning to be the light
Whoa, whoa

When a heart is cold as ice
You can't melt it with advice
No one wants to listen to
A list of things they shouldn't do
So I build a city on a hill
And I light a candle on the sill
Knowing You'll be always knocking at the door
Oh God I just want to love on everyone
All I have is Yours to give so let the people come

It's so much brighter living in Your world
Savior what You did for me
You gave me something I want everyone to see
When we struggle and it all goes wrong
Only You can make it right
So I say
Oh oh oh oh oh
I'm learning to be the light
Whoa, whoa
I'm learning to be the light
Whoa, whoa
I'm learning to be the light

That makes the shadows hide
The light that breaks the curse of pride
The light that takes the weary in its arms

When it all came crashing down
There was only darkness all around
But in the distance I could see
A flame

It's so much brighter living in Your world
Savior what You did for me
You gave me something I want everyone, I mean everyone to see
When we struggle and it all goes wrong
Only You can make it right
So I say
Oh oh oh oh oh
I'm learning to be the light
Whoa, whoa
I'm learning to be the light
Whoa, whoa
I'm learning to be the light
Whoa, whoa
I'm learning to be the light
Whoa, whoa
I'm learning to be the light!

The Next Chapter - August 31, 2012

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Those who know your name trust in you, for you, O Lord, do not abandon those who search for you.~ Psalm 9:10, NLT

"But I trust in you, O LORD; I say, 'You are my God.'" Psalm 31:14

I get bible verses in my email and text everyday, when I receive similar messages on the same day I know I need to be listening. Today it is trust!
When I am surrounding by turmoil I may lose my way, when I am broken in spirit I may lose my way, when I cannot see the path I may lose my way.....trust is mine to control. When I give it freely I do not worry, when I close my hand and my heart I struggle....... Today I will trust, I will open my hand and my heart and lift it up.

Lift Me Up - The Afters

You lift me up with your love
You lift me up with your love
You lift me up with your love
You lift me up

Waiting for the sunrise
Waiting for the day
Waiting for a sign
That I'm where you want me to be

You know my heart is heavy
And the hurt is deep
But when I feel like giving up
You're reminding me
That we all fall down sometimes
But when I hit the ground

You lift me up when I am weak
Your arms wrap around me
Your love catches me so I'm letting go
You lift me up when I can't see
Your heart is all that I need
Your love carries me so I'm letting go

You lift me up with your love
You lift me up with your love
You lift me up with your love
You lift me up

I know I'm not perfect
I know I make mistakes
I know that I have let you down
But you love me the same

And when I'm surrounded
When I lose my way
When I'm crying out and falling down
You are here to

Lift me up when I am weak
Your arms wrap around me
Your love catches me so I'm letting go
You lift me up when I can't see
Your heart is all that I need
Your love carries me so I'm letting go

I can see the dawn is breaking
I am feeling overtaken with your love
With your love
I don't know what I can offer
In this moment I surrender to your love
To your love

You lift me up when I am weak
Your arms wrap around me
Your love catches me so I'm letting go

You lift me up when I am weak
Your arms wrap around me
Your love catches me so I'm letting go
You lift me up when I can't see
Your heart is all that I need
Your love carries me so I'm letting go

I can see the dawn is breaking
I am feeling overtaken with your love

You lift me up with your love
You lift me up with your love
You lift me up with your love
You lift me up

The Next Chapter - August 30, 2012

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He will cover you with his feathers,and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. ~ Psalm 91:4

Thank you Kristin for reminding me that he has me covered..... A beautiful reminder from a lovely friend. In this world of instant communication and instant gratification we need to be reminded God's Will God's Time (GWGT) and it most definitely will not be in an instant and most surely will be lesson in patience. Remember this.......he will never let you go!


"You Never Let Go" - Matt Redman

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know You are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

[Chorus:]
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth

[Chorus:]

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

The Next Chapter - August 29, 2012

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Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7

As I stride to be a better mother, a better friend, a better partner ... I am reminded of this verse and his unfailing, unconditional love for us.
I continue to pray for his will, the ability to see the path, and the patience while waiting for his timing.

Amazing Love - Newsboys

I'm forgiven because You were forsaken
I'm accepted, You were condemned
I'm alive and well, Your Spirit is within me
Because You died and rose again

I'm forgiven because You were forsaken
I'm accepted, You were condemned
I'm alive and well, Your Spirit is within me
Because You died and rose again

Amazing love, how can it be
That You, my King, should die for me?
Amazing love, I know it's true
It's my joy to honor You
In all I do, To honor You

I'm forgiven because You were forsaken
I'm accepted, You were condemned
I'm alive and well, Your Spirit is within me
Because You died and rose again

Amazing love, how can it be
That You, my King, should die for me?
Amazing love, I know it's true
It's my joy to honor You
In all I do, To honor You
In all I do, To honor You

You are my King
You are my King
Jesus, You are my King
You are my King

Amazing love, how can it be
That You, my King, should die for me?
Amazing love, I know it's true
It's my joy to honor You

Amazing love, how can it be
That You, my King, should die for me?
Amazing love, I know it's true
It's my joy to honor You
In all I do, To honor You

In all I do, To honor You,
In all I do, To honor You,
In all I do, Let me honor You.

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But I trust in your unfailing love? I will rejoice because you have rescued me.

~ Psalm 13:5, NLT

Unfailing love. How can it be unconditional, I am a sinner, I make the same mistakes over and over again. Today my son was answering a simple question with a defensive response. I want to stay calm and in my mind I am calm. But my words are sharp and loud. So again I start my day asking for forgiveness and humbling myself to my child asking for his forgiveness for my sharp words. As I continue my walk I often feel like I am caught between two people, myself and my former self.... I feel like I am growing and learning but standing still......trying to surrender without losing all control.

CASTING CROWNS
"Somewhere In The Middle"

Somewhere between the hot and the cold
Somewhere between the new and the old
Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me

Somewhere between the wrong and the right
Somewhere between the darkness and the light
Somewhere between who I was and who You're making me
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Fearless warriors in a picket fence, reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end and we are caught in the middle
With eyes wide open to the differences, the God we want and the God who is
But will we trade our dreams for His or are we caught in the middle
Are we caught in the middle

Somewhere between my heart and my hands
Somewhere between my faith and my plans
Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves

Somewhere between a whisper and a roar
Somewhere between the altar and the door
Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more
Somewhere in the middle You'll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Lord, I feel You in this place and I know You're by my side
Loving me even on these nights when I'm caught in the middle

The Next Chapter - August 19, 2012

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Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. ~ Ephesians 1:3

Amazing Grace how sweet the sound.....I was surrounded by his grace today. I felt the spirit at church in an abundance! I am so grateful for my church family the love, concern, and support I felt today was overwhelming. When serving communion every time I said. "The blood of Christ shed for you" I got more and more choked up, I almost lost when the young lady I have been praying for since her accident came up...... I felt like every second was planned out. Blessed Assurance.


Blessed Assurance -
Third Day

Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine!
O what a foretaste of glory divine!
Heir of salvation, purchase of God,
Born of his Spirit, washed in his blood.

This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long;
This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long.

Perfect submission, all is at rest;
I in my Savior am happy and blessed,
Watching and waiting, looking above,
Filled with his goodness, lost in his love.

The Next Chapter - August 17, 2012

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Well well well.... What a day!
I asked the general manager at work if my contract was going to be extended and he said he did not think so, but he would like me know for sure on Monday. Wow!
Talk about pulling the rug, I felt physically punched in the stomach. What's a girl to do? First things first a good cry....second pray... And third call on others to pray.... That is just what I did. Thank you Pastor Stan and Jamie for answering my call when I called to cry in your ears and ask for prayer.

I use this verse all the time but today I am reciting it like a mantra......

Jeremiah 29:11-13
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

The first song I hear today after my conversation with the GM was Matt Redman - You Never Let Go

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know you are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

The Next Chapter - August 14, 2012

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For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD - Isaiah 55:8

I love that I was reminded of this verse today..... I need to remember in the time of uncertainty that I will be richly rewarded for my faith and he will show me my path when I am ready for it, and not before I am ready. And even when I think I am ready I am not.
His way is not my way.....


Everything Falls - Fee

EVERYTHING FALLS
Fee

You said
you'd never leave or forsake me
when you said,
this life is gonna shake me
and you said
this world is gonna bring trouble on my soul
this I know

Chorus:
when everything falls apart
your arms hold me together
when everything falls apart
you're the only hope for this heart
when everything falls apart
and my strength is gone
I find you mighty and strong
you keep holding on
you keep holding on

when I see
darkness all around me
when I see
that tragedy has found me
I still believe
your faithful arms will never let me go
and still I know

Chorus:
when everything falls apart
your arms hold me together
when everything falls apart
you're the only hope for this heart
when everything falls apart
and my strength is gone
I find you mighty and strong
you keep holding on
you keep holding on


Bridge:
Sorrow will last for the night
but hope is rising with the sun
(it’s rising with the sun)
and there will be storms in this life
but I know you have overcome
You have overcome

Chorus:
when everything falls apart
your arms hold me together
when everything falls apart
you're the only hope for this heart
when everything falls apart
and my strength is gone
I find you mighty and strong
you keep holding on

Chorus:
when everything falls apart
your arms hold me together
when everything falls apart
you're the only hope for this heart
when everything falls apart
and my strength is gone
I find you mighty and strong
you keep holding on
you keep holding on

The Next Chapter - August 13, 2012

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John 6:35- Then Jesus declared, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.

Today I felt tired, worn out and just plain done. Then around lunch time I was texting with my BFF and she reminded me that went I go through Jesus to the father I will never be without..... Image never be without! I saw this verse this morning prior to her text in a devotional.
And I read it again when she texted
And I missed the point the first time.... I know I will find peace and it may not be where I am, I am ready for the journey!

From The Inside Out
Phillips Craig & Dean

From The Inside Out lyrics

A thousand times I've failed, still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again, still I'm caught in your grace
Everlasting, Your light when shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame

chorus:
My heart and my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing You praise

chorus 2:
Everlasting, Your light will shine whe nall else fades
Never ending, your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out, Lord my soul cries out
My heart and my soul, I give you control

Everlasting, Your light will shine whe nall else fades
Never ending, your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out, Lord my soul cries out
My heart and my soul, I give you control

Everlasting, Your light will shine whe nall else fades
Never ending, your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out, Lord my soul cries out
My heart and my soul, I give you control

The Next Chapter - August 12, 2012

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What an amazing busy day!

As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called to one hope when you were called ; one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all. Ephesians 4:1-6

Beautiful message this morning from my BFF Jamie at church, Hagar's story from Genesis 16..... Amazing, touchy, beautifully interpreted. Not a dry eye.....Plus the bonus of hearing her songs!
Then David & Laura's wedding. One of the most beautiful weddings I have every seen, so much feeling and love. It was wonderful! I am so blessed with my church family. I took my message today from the wedding readings.

And my song from Jamie's message:

He's My Son - Mark Schultz

I'm down on my knees again tonight,
I'm hoping this prayer will turn out right.
See, there is a boy that needs Your help.
I've done all that I can do myself
His mother is tired,
I'm sure You can understand.
Each night as he sleeps
She goes in to hold his hand,
And she tries
Not to cry
As the tears fill her eyes.

Can You hear me?
Am I getting through tonight?
Can You see him?
Can You make him feel all right?
If You can hear me
Let me take his place some how.
See, he's not just anyone, he's my son.

Sometimes late at night I watch him sleep,
I dream of the boy he'd like to be.
I try to be strong and see him through,
But God, who he needs right now is You.
Let him grow old,
Live life without this fear.
What would I be
Living without him here?
He's so tired,
And he's scared
Let him know that You're there.

Can You hear me?
Am I getting through tonight?
Can You see him?
Can You make him feel all right?
If You can hear me
Let me take his place some how.
See, he's not just anyone, he's my son.

Can You hear me?
Am I getting through tonight?
Can You see him?
Can You make him feel all right?
If You can hear me
Let me take his place somehow.
See, he's not just anyone.

Can You hear me?
Can You see him?
Please don't leave him,
He's my son.

The Next Chapter - August 10, 2012

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For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:11-13

I have used this verse time and time again... I am lead back to it at time of struggle. I was lead today again. I receive a few devotions by email each day, but today I picked up my Upper Room, which I grabbed from church on Sunday. Jeremiah 29:11 was today's verse! Given my current stress with the changes at my work and the unknown status of my expiring contract it is nice to be reminded that he's got my back and when I continued from verse 11 to verse 13 I was reminded again to seek him with my whole heart!
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;in all your ways submit to him,and he will make your paths straight.

The Next Chapter - August 6, 2012

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Then the way you live will always honor and please the Lord, and your lives will produce every kind of good fruit. ~ Colossians 1:10, NLT

I truly believe when you live with a pure heart and clear/clean conscience you will please the Lord. Sunday's sermon was from Romans and accountability .... This morning I expected the worst and got it. Merry did not transition to summer camp well, I worried for her all day. On the way home I prayed for a peaceful end to the day, I got a quiet evening and a migraine. The quiet was my peace the headache was my worry from the day. Tomorrow I will pray for strength in my day to release me from my concerns and I will give it up.... Start my day tomorrow as it ends today. In prayer and thanksgiving.

All Creatures Of Our God and King - David Crowder Band

All creatures of our God and King
Lift up your voice and with us sing
Oh, praise Him
Alleluia
Thou burning sun with golden beam
Thou silver moon with softer gleam
Oh, praise Him
Oh, praise Him
Alleluia
Alleluia
Alleluia

Thou rushing wind that art so strong
Ye clouds that sail in heav'n along
Oh, praise Him
Alleluia
Thou rising moon in praise rejoice
Ye lights of evening find a voice
Oh, praise Him
Oh, praise Him
Alleluia
Alleluia
Alleluia

Let all things their creator bless
And worship Him in humbleness
Oh, praise Him
Alleluia
Praise, praise the Father praise the Son
And praise the Spirit three in one
Oh, praise Him
Oh, praise Him
Alleluia
Alleluia
Alleluia

Praise, praise the Father praise the Son
And praise the Spirit three in one
Oh, praise Him
Oh, praise Him
Alleluia
Alleluia
Alleluia

praise the creator not the created.....

The Next Chapter ~ July 28, 2012

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Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.~ 1 Corinthians 13:8

I honestly thought for the longest time this love failed me.... But then I realized it is God's love that never fails. What a new lease on life. Knowing his love will never disappear and no matter I will always have it. I am ready really ready for the love he has for me, and I am ready really ready to live on just this love instead of rushing to find love outside his arms.

Love Never Fails - Brandon Heath

Love is not proud
Love does not boast
Love after all
Matters the most

Love does not run
Love does not hide
Love does not keep
Locked inside

Love is the river that flows through
Love never fails you
Love will sustain
Love will provide
Love will not cease
At the end of time

Love will protect
Love always hopes
Love still believes
When you don't

Love is the arms that are holding you
Love never fails you
When my heart won't make a sound
When I can't turn back around
When the sky is falling down
Nothing is greater than this
Greater than this

Love is right here
Love is alive
Love is the way
The truth the life

Love is the river than flows through
Love is the arms that are holding you
Love is the place you will fly to
Love never fails you

The Next Chapter - July 27, 2012

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Believers in humble circumstances ought to take pride in their high position. James 1:9

Humble and to be humbled.... Giving all to God whenever possible.
When I think I am in control he steps in and reminds me he is in control.
Humbly I ask for forgiveness and his grace....

The Next Chapter - July 26, 2012

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But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. - James 1:6

Blown and tossed by the wind..... This week was blown and tossed, vacation hmmm supposed to be, still working plus homework....contract ending in 5 weeks... Not sure whether my contract will be extended, all a waiting game. Patience is not my virtue. Prayers for strength in this waiting. Waiting for him to show me the way....patience in the wait


Where I Belong - Building 429

Sometimes it feels like I'm watching from the outside
Sometimes it feels like I'm breathing but am I alive
I will keep searching for answers that aren't here to find

All I know is I'm not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong

So when the walls come falling down on me
And when I'm lost in the current of a raging sea
I have this blessed assurance holding me.

All I know is I'm not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong

When the earth shakes I wanna be found in You
When the lights fade I wanna be found in You

All I know is I'm not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong
[x2]

Where I belong, where I belong
Where I belong, where I belong

The Next Chapter - July 25, 2012

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Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.
~ James 1:4-5

Asking God for wisdom. Knowing when to ask is wisdom in itself.... Waiting for the answer is perseverance.... Patience. I need to wait on the Lord. As I sit still an listen for his answer, turmoil is active and breeding in my life in the last few weeks. Today for the first time I felt peace. I will built on this peace and know he will continue to show me the way.


Alive Again - Matt Maher

I woke up in darkness surrounded by silence
Oh where, where have I gone?
I woke to reality losing its grip on me
Oh where, where have I gone?

'Cause I can see the light before I see the sunrise

You called and You shouted
Broke through my deafness
Now I'm breathing in and breathing out
I'm alive again

You shattered my darkness
Washed away my blindness
Now I'm breathing in and breathing out
I'm alive again

Late have I loved You
You waited for me
I searched for You
What took me so long?

I was looking outside
As if love would ever want to hide
I'm finding I was wrong

'Cause I could feel the wind before it hits my skin

You called and You shouted
Broke through my deafness
Now I'm breathing in and breathing out
I'm alive again

You shattered my darkness
Washed away my blindness
Now I'm breathing in and breathing out
I'm alive again, I'm alive again

'Cause I want You, yes, I want You, I need You
And I'll do whatever I have to just to get through
'Cause I love You, yeah, I love You

You called and You shouted
Broke through my deafness
Now I'm breathing in and breathing out
I'm alive again

You shattered my darkness
Washed away my blindness
Now I'm breathing in and breathing out
I'm alive again

The Next Chapter - July 23, 2012

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These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.” ~John 16:33

Tribulation, trials, temptation..we never think we can handle it beforehand but we just keep swimming... We wonder how we will get through a situation but we do, When I don't think I can make it another step, you carry me. When we remember to have faith and trust in his plan we will be ok. We will be renewed.


You Carried Me - Building 429

I've been so busy, I missed the reasons
I missed Your love, and I nearly missed it all
Still You've loved me, and You've healed me
You've given all and it brought me to Your cross
And I stand only because You've given me grace to walk
Only because

You carried me
You carried me
You carried me through it all
And I believe
Yes I believe
You'll carry me all the way home
Cause mercy covers all

I know the scripture, I've known the songs
I sang the words from my hollowed heart
But You've spoken softly through the storm
I've heard Your voice and I've felt the calm
I stand only because You've given me faith to walk
Only because

You carried me
You carried me
You carried me through it all

And I believe
Yes I believe
You'll carry me all the way home

I know that you love me
I'll never doubt it, I can't live without it
Your mercy has found me
I am astounded, I can't live without it oooh

You carried me, You carried me
Through it all...

You carried me
You carried me
And I believe
Yeah I believe
You'll carry me all the way home
Cause mercy covers all
Mercy covers all
Yeah, yeah

And I believe
And I believe
I believe

The Next Chapter - July 21, 2012

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Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” —Hebrews 13:5

He always sends help, today it was a conversation while stuck in traffic, later an amazing day with friends at the cabins. After a very difficult week it was nice to decompress..... Fixing dinner for 14 in the best vacation spot.
Looking forward to being here fior two weeks, and grateful to have a job to call this a vacation

My Help Comes From The Lord - The Museum

When sorrows come and hope seems gone
You're the rock I rest upon
When waters rise and I can't breathe
You're the love that rescues me

Out of the darkness I lift up my eyes
Unto the hills I feel my faith rise

Maker of heaven, giver of life
You are my strength my song in the night My refuge my shelter Now and forevermore My help comes from the Lord

When I'm broken scarred by sin
Death gives way to life again
When I suffer when I doubt
In you I'm free in you I'm found

Maker of heaven, giver of life
You are my strength
You're my refuge
Now and forevermore...

The Next Chapter -July 20, 2012

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Turn us back to You, O Lord, and we will be restored. —Lamentations 5:21

Restored, starting anew, to began again. A heavenly do over! I am reeling from a situation at work and would love a do over, but God in his wisdom is using this for his glory. I am being called upon to stand up for myself and do as Jesus would do, honestly and without ill will. It is difficult to stand up and know you are doing the right thing when others doing wrong will pay the price. I said for God's glory..... I am learning and growing from this experience, ever so painfully but growing none the less... Taking a personal inventory and working in my shortcomings, and becoming stronger person on the other side.


Stronger - Mandisa

Hey, heard you were up all night
Thinking about how your world ain't right
And you wonder if things will ever get better
And you're asking why is it always raining on you
When all you want is just a little good news
Instead of standing there stuck out in the weather

Oh, don't hang your head
It's gonna end
God's right there
Even if it's hard to see Him
I promise you that He still cares

[Chorus:]
When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
And things can only get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger
Gonna make you stronger, stronger, stronger
Believe me, this is gonna make you Stronger

Try and do the best you can
Hold on and let Him hold your hand
And go on and fall into the arms of Jesus
Oh, lift your head it's gonna end
God's right there
Even when you just can't feel Him
I promise you that He still cares

[Chorus]

'Cause if He started this work in your life
He will be faithful to complete it
If only you believe it
He knows how much it hurts
And I'm sure that He's gonna help you get through this

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
In time it's gonna get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger

The Next Chapter - July 17, 2012

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"The LORD is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him." Nahum 1:7 NIV

Today I got a similar verse in 2 separate emails. Nahum 1:7; John 14:1. All talking about trouble.... God knows what we need to hear, and sometimes it is surprising from whom I hear it from! Reminding us to do the right thing and most of all be honest. Sometimes honesty comes at a price, when you are willing to trust in God the benefits are priceless! Don't be afraid to stand out, that is how the lost get found!

The Lost Get Found - Britt Nicole

Hello my friend, I remember when you were
So alive with your wide eyes
Then the light that you had in your heart was stolen
Now you say that it ain't worth stayin'
You wanna run but you're hesitatin', I'm talkin' to me

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'Cause somewhere
Somebody needs a reason to believe

Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found

So when you get the chance, are you gonna take it?
There's a really big world at your fingertips
And you know you have the chance to change it
There's a girl on the streets, she's cryin'
There's a man whose faith is dyin', love is callin' you

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'Cause somewhere
Somebody needs a reason to believe

Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found

Why do we go with the flow
Or take an easier road?
Why are we playin' it safe?
Love came to show us the way
Love is a chance we should take
I'm movin' out of the way

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'Cause somewhere
Somebody needs a reason to believe
(Stand out)

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
(Stand out)
'Cause somewhere
Somebody needs a reason to believe

Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found

So when you get the chance
Are you gonna take it?
There's a really big world at your fingertips
And you know you have the chance to change it