Oh Lord, help me.... I am tying a knot and hanging on for dear life..... Merry is out of control, and I am going to lose my mind. Tonight after a great after school time, I thought it would be fun to have ice cream for dinner. Merry gets a tummy ache from ice cream so I gave her a lactaid pill. Everything is going great, until a Friendly employee came over to make Merry and Jack balloon animals. Merry asked for an elephant, and he made her and elephant. Jack asked for an octopus and he made him an octopus... both were great and free! That is when the smiles turned to envy and jealousy. Merry felt Jack's octopus was better and bigger than her elephant, and she copped an attitude with a capitol A. I noticed an tried to make light of it, and she was off and running, screaming at me in the parking lot "freakin swearing" to the point that it was unsafe while I was driving, at a red light she actually tried to rip the phone from my ear. I am so utterly disappointed with my daughter, and I fear for Jack and he retaliation. I cannot even look at her. I tried to stay as calm as possible, but she is so very talented at pushing my buttons. I gave her an anti-anxiety pill, and put her to bed. I am hoping she falls asleep.
So now here I am an hour later, and she is calm. And lying in bed. I am processing and praying for solutions. I know she is processing and trying to figure out her triggers. I am at a loss when she feels this way, and come to find out she has a math test this week, and a girl at school has been being mean.... these are all really good reasons for anxiety, but no matter why, the behavior is unacceptable and requires consequences. I am praying for guidance, and intervention from the holy spirit.
Wow, I am definitely not up for mother of the year. I did hold my tongue and my temper, and I hugged and prayed with her.
my father’s God, and I will exalt him. ~ Exodus 15:2
Blessed Assurance - Third Day Live Version.
Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine!
Oh, what a foretaste of glory divine!
Heir of salvation, purchase of God,
Born of His Spirit, washed in His blood.
Refrain:
This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long;
This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long.
Perfect submission, perfect delight,
Visions of rapture now burst on my sight;
Angels, descending, bring from above
Echoes of mercy, whispers of love.
Perfect submission, all is at rest,
I in my Savior am happy and blest,
Watching and waiting, looking above,
Filled with His goodness, lost in His love.
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